SATURDAY'S ADVENTURE

it's when the usual friend festivities become monotonous that i ask myself, "why not soak up my surroundings? why not be adventurous, with mind wide open?" these questions were asked in my head on saturday, when my good friend and i wanted to do something we never have. i remembered a spot, close to home, that i have been wanting to explore for the longest time. somehow, i just never got around to going, until saturday. we hopped in my jeep with the windows down, pretty much melting from the heat - but that's memorable - ready to set foot on new grounds.

i loved being in center of the open field, the wind was stronger there, but still warm; the sky was as blue and clear as it should be. after walking a ways, we arrived to what we could previously see from a distance. from afar, it looked beautiful and unique; but, as we got closer our perception of this tower changed. up close, the wear and tear was evident; the abandonment was there; and if i'm honest, it was a let-down. but isn't that exactly a picture of people, of me, perrin? it's way too easy to portray something we are not, to act as if we have it all together; to slap a smile across our face even when the times are tough; to respond with "good" when we are asked how things are going, yet fully aware of the relationships that are breaking with friends, family, God. that is what this tower reminded me of: from far away, everything is fine and dandy, but a closer look, an inside look tells us otherwise. isn't it beautiful that the Lord sees these faults and sees the garden full of weeds in our hearts, but forgives and loves and lavishes without ceasing. our continual attempts to cover the bad and the ugly - they are never successful with God. we are forgiven, we are loved, we are granted mercy and grace in abundance.
quit the self-righteousness act, accept your inadequacy, child, and hold the Father's right hand forevermore.